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You know it's funny how when you were cast into a regime, you swear, you roar, you rebel, you squirm, you try your best-est to get out of it and when you finally attained your heart desires, you start reminiscing days of the past and now it finally appeals to you after all these years, like the wearing of the uniform.

The almost-impromptu gathering involving 6 women who were ex-schoolmates took place at Takashimaya's Coffee Club. To revive your memory, there was Miss Exotic Specie (ES), the one who now has a toddler Pipa Quek to her credit. There was Miss Long-Legged (LL), the one due to get engaged on Christmas Day this year. There is Miss Lawyer (LW), the one who left Singapore 5 years ago and has never managed to stay in Singapore for more than a month. Then there is Miss Kawaii (K) who is also getting married within half a year from now and finally there is Miss Shu Nu (SN) and myself (OLT).

Below is the conversation between these six women who are not so young anymore and bordering on the point of 'auntie-ness':

ES: Eh, i want to wait for someone to get pregnant together with me leh! It is no fun getting pregnant alone. The queue at the gynae is always very long and lonely.
OLT: LL, where are you holding your engagement? Are you going to wear pretty pretty?
LL: I am booking Aloha. The theme is retro!
OLT: Retro? I love retro!!! I am retro!!
LL: Yeah, might need to borrow your disco ball.
OLT: Alright man.
ES: Eh, there is this alumni dinner thing sent out from St. John. I received the email.
OLT: Wah, how did you get on that mailing list?
ES: I don't know, they just sent it to our emails.
K: Yeah, i got it too.
LW: I think what OLT was trying to say was that why you all never change your email addresses at all for a long time.
OLT: Yeah!
ES: So are we going to the Alumni dinner?
K: It sounds fun leh.
OLT: It sounds like Romy and Michele's High School Reunion kind of thing.
ES: So are we going?
LL: If you all want to go, then i'll go lor.
OLT: I don't believe it. It has been 8 years since we left Dunman and now we are going back as lao cha bor.
ES: Okay what! So are we going? Is the place air-conditioned by the way?
LL: There are only two places they can hold it which is the hall or the basketball court. I don't think it will be air-conditioned.
SN: And they won't hold in on the carpet grass either. The grass is too expensive!

At this point in time, OLT gave a disgrunted look as all the rest of the ladies started twittering about how to get uniforms and words spun into a haze around her. By the time she woke up from her daydreams ...

SN: So we must dress like delinquents.
OLT: Huh?
ES: We are going to wear school uniforms to LL's engagement party! I want to wear the TKGS uniform!
OLT: Because it is green right?
ES: *thought for a while* Yeah!!
OLT: Are we going to wear elephant socks and the laciest bras we could find?


Lacy bra


Striped Elephant Socks

SN: And more! We are going to wear the watches with the biggest watch face we can find and wear and carry Eastpak!


I used to carry a dark blue Eastpak.

OLT: I am afraid that i might not be able to button up my uniform since i ...
ES: The point is not to button up! Show the bra!
OLT: ...


I've been eating fishball noodles for the past 3 days at Millenia Foodcourt. I am becoming a fishball. I am a fishball.

Saturday Day and Night Fever

Supposing supposing, i have no prior engagement on a Saturday, i would like to sit in with a book (if i have a book), kick my feet around in bed and an ice cold Coke Light to match. Coke Light, i insist. Because a girl cannot lie in bed and kick her feet around and yet drink the normal Coke which would add calories to her already lazy state.

But today, yes today, i have no prior definite engagement (today's engagements are those my absence would not be sorely missed) but yet i suddenly have the desire to be trigger-happy, go to the new library in town and watch a movie.

And perhaps i shall do just that. Because there is only one Saturday a week.

Singapore Sling

This is infinitely weird. While trying to write an entry about how much i still feel for Singapore, the entry was 'deleted' two times by blogger due to maintenance. It must be a sign from Heaven. I shall expound my love no longer.

This Tall Male Canadian Fella

I was told yesterday that i have an aptitude for fun and for that reason and others, i was also told that my latest crush on this tall male Canadian fella would not work out.

I have a crush on this tall male Canadian fella who was ironically, the very person i told myself i would never have a crush on almost half a year ago. Half a year ago, he and a group of three other people visited my then-office for a "tour" and i brought them around and i remembered telling myself how geeky he looked and so not the kind of guy i would have a crush on. And yes, i would now tell myself never to count the chickens before they hatch.

He also happened to be one of the interviewers for my current new job. I arrived that day at the reception area and saw him standing beside me, exchanging for a temporary pass to get through the security. A hunch told me to run ahead of him because that hunch told me that he could be my interviewer. And so i strode hastily to the lift and tried to press the lift doors close when he slid in smoothly.

He would not recognise me, i thought to myself and seconds later ... a "Hello D" wormed its way into my ears. "Are you my interviewer?" i asked and he gave me a sideway glance and uh huh-ed me. And i remembered thinking that sideway glance was adorable but my raging nerves overwhelmed me.

I saw him in Canada during my trip and this time, i remembered how adorable he was. He has very endearing mannerisms and i conversed with him much more during this period of time that gradually i built up more solid affection for him.

Me: "So you know how i felt for you?"
Him: "Yeah, i'm not totally inept you know. Only about 98%. But you also have to know that i am extremely shy."

And so i was talking to this other colleague, FE, who knew more about him yesterday about him and FE said it would not work out because he is so painfully shy, he basically shuts everyone out and is blissfully unaware of his feelings.

FE: He would never say he likes a girl.
Me: So you mean if ever one day i can make him say he likes me, i should go out with him?
FE: Yeah! Wait... on the other hand no, he would probably still mindfuck you. He wouldn't know how to handle a relationship because he has never been in one and i bet he has never even kissed a girl before.

(Why does that somehow sound even more appealing? Hmmm...)

FE: And both of you are so different. Ya-dah Ya-dah Ya-dah.....

And in my mind, what kept floating into my consciousness was my last day in Canada when he came to find me to say goodbye and we hugged (okay .. i hugged him and he hugged me back) and when i told him i would miss him, he said "I would miss you too" back.

What to make of it?

The Word I Call "Back"

I love this picture so that i don't care about my privacy anymore. I love hydrangeas! Now that you have finished looking at the frowers, forget me.



I am finally back to Singapore.

I can't say i am exactly the happiest person around when i stepped into Toronto airport and boarded the 15 hours direct flight to Hong Kong. There were jumbled and disorderly sounds i heard in my head and i could not even put them into words. I stared solemnly out of the tiny plane window, saying farewell to the abundant flowers and green green trees, flat flat buildings and as a finale, to the place i have grown to love in merely a month.

I love the people here. I love the weather. I love Tim Hortons. I love everything.

And in my heart, i know what i love the most. My absolute freedom.

I love being anybody i want to be in Canada.

It's just that sometimes i think Singapore has this stifling effect on people. Singapore makes you feel that you want to be someone. You have to study hard. You have to get a good job. You have to carry a Gucci or an LV to distinguish your "establishment". You have to be popular. You have to be. You have to be. You have to be. And in my whole life, i've never wanted to be. I have never wanted to be anyone more than what i already am and ask that people accept me.

But i shall not complain because going to Canada on an almost all paid expense was a once in a lifetime's dream. And like all other dreams, i know it is going to end. But unlike all other dreams, this one gave me real hope. During the past month, i cleared my brains well. I put aside worries and i live everyday like it is meant to be. I was happy and coming back, i shall be happy. I touched down on Hong Kong airport and i felt so happy when i received multiple messages from friends asking for my flight details so that they could welcome me from the airport. I actually landed in Singapore early and was gratified to see Sandra, Makanguru and Brennan were there to help me carry my luggage and sent me home to deposit my stuff. I felt so loved! And for the people who wanted to come but couldn't, thank you.

And i remembered going to bed "jetlaggedly" at 10 am in the next morning (simply because i couldn't sleep) and smiling a little to myself thanking angels that there are still friends around to make everything better.

On hindsight, i went to watch Dim Sum Dollies after being suitably miffed at missing one of Corrinne May's concert while i was in Canada.



And i am interested on attending the following:

National Day 2005: Street Artists

World Music Month: Salsa, Samba & Bossa Nova by Lounge Lizards.

While You Were Sleeping by Darren Soh.

Time, Phase, Print - The 25th Anniversary

Late Nite @ Esplanade:
Sound Therapy by Electrico.

Late Nite @ Esplanade: Young Ladies of Jazz by Dawn Ho and Michaela Therese.

I am finding people to join me for the above events.

Hey you

I am back. :)